2005-01-24 - 12:26 p.m.

i did go to class today. everything is going to be fine. i can just never skip class ever again.
i didnt resolve a damn thing with daniel. and my house is freezing cold, and my front steps are frozen over, and i slipped on my way in this morning and now i have a great big bruise on my elbow. it hurts. wah. poor me. one of these days, not today, ill write an entry about all the things that suck about my life. itll be the longest thing ive ever written, cause theres so many ways it sucks. and no one who reads it will ever tell me their life sucks, because in the life sucking category, i do and always will take the cake. isnt that an awful thing to say? i mean, if someone is upset and says to me, gee, lara, my life is a bummer, wah wah, i should try to comfort them, not be like, booya, my life is a bigger bummer than yours! besides, its not all that bad. i had a nice morning.
daniel drove me to school today. got me a coffee and a breakfast sandwich from a breakfast vending cart. enjoyed my class. sun's not out but its bright anyway cause of all the snow. and i didnt slip and fall until i was home where no one could see me :)
but i did have this dream last night about being pregnant. i dreamed i was invited to this party, and i thought, well, i hope i give birth before the party, so that when im there i can drink. then i had the baby. it was a little baby boy. we named it robert. everyone said it was cute. when i held it it felt stiff like a baby doll, but i cuddled it anyway. it wasnt moving or responding and i started to panic, like maybe something was wrong with it. but i looked at its face, and it looked okay, eyes open and awake and everything. then someone saw these little things on the floor and picked them up and were like, what are these? ew, what are they? i looked at them and they looked like bloody little fingers. then i looked at the baby's hands and saw they were bloody too, and i screamed, and then i woke up. but i only screamed in the dream, not out loud.

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