2005-06-24 - 1:22 a.m.

listening to Rilo Kiley's Science vs. Romance

i came home from work last week and daniel was sitting on the bed. i went and sat next to him. we talked for a little while about dumb stuff. i thought, well, at least we arent fighting. i knocked on the wall with my fist and said some sentimental comment about, ya know, im going to tell stories about this house for the rest of my life. and then we kissed.
my life ain't a porno so i'll stop there. the next day i took three birth control pills. dunno what i thought that might do.

i decided once and for all that i cant keep living here. its wrong, its every kind of wrong, its wrong for everyone involved but its especially wrong for me. and i left. i spent the night out with krissy (yes krissy) and came home the next morning. I was going to announce that i was moving out at the end of the month. but i figured i needed a place to live first. So i asked my friends Mel and tony if i could be their house mate. they just had a room mate leave them. and what do you know. they said no. they said jay asked them yesterday if she could live with them.
daniel found a job in new york. when the lease is over in july he's moving there for good. that's why jay asked mel and t if she could live with them. she's known for weeks.
now i dont have a place to live.
i think i might actually hate everyone i know.
i thought i might make this the "my life takes the cake when it comes to suck lives" but i am just too damn depressed to type it all out.
later

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