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2005-09-07 - 2:09 p.m. Listening to Chopin etude no 3 :P thats my new theme song now. the weather here has gotten gorgeous again, its no longer deathly hot and also, the air conditioning works. go figure, it gets fixed as soon as it drops back down to a nice 80 degrees (instead of 100) yeah, i know i havent written much lately. I'm not really even sure who reads this. ive mostly got it going for people who ive known for a while but never see anymore (in real life) or for people ive met online a while ago and dont get to talk to much anymore, just so no one thinks ive dropped off the face of the earth or anything. But the thing of it is, ive been a little embarrassed about how my life has been going, and havent been able to bring myself to advertise that. Instead of writing these long introspective entries about my life (which dont do me any good anyway really) ive been spending an ungodly amount of time writing FICTION! yeah, i know i mentioned before that i started writing fanfiction, which is about as far down the dork scale as ive ever (and will ever!) go, and i'm actually proud of what ive written. but going back to writing actual plot driven stories has inspired me to embark on some original fiction as well. ive always thought i was a decent writer. of course, in this journal i'm writing casually, but actually ive got a fine grasp of grammar and such, and i think im pretty creative with plots and characters. I dont know if im very good with the actual writing, like with style and voice and content and logic and what not, but im also very picky about those things, and i read a lot, so i know what my eventual ideal goal is. ive just had such an amazing amount of FUN writing all this stuff, my fanfic (which i can post online and get unending praise and reveiws for, always an ego boost and a plus) and my original fic, which i can fantasize about getting published and then becoming the next jk rowling (harry potter is the first and only guy ive ever had a crush on. no, not the actor. the character. ok maybe i just slid a little further down on the dork scale) never was a poet really, i mean my poems were always fairly technically sound, but poetry is pretty boring to me and it seems needlessly self indulgent. i mean, i had some miserable times, but so did a lot of people, what makes my life so unique that i can write poetry about it and expect praise. i swear, the first poem i wrote was because i asked someone to read my story and their response was, you should write poetry, its (i think they actually said deeper) yeah that and my girlfriend was a poet. that might have pushed me over to that direction as well, now that i think about it. but anyway. ive felt rather happy recently. i feel about as happy as i did, hmmmmm. in my tiny little room in florence where i had this delusion that i was going to be a painter... i guess creatitivity makes me happy. or, maybe i just like living in tiny spaces! marcus's girlfriend (and i sleep on marcus's couch for anyone who wonders where exactly im living right now) says i can live in her closet. she said it as a joke originally, but then she moved into her new place and invited me over to help her paint the walls (dont ask) and i saw said closet, which is about the size of my old OLD room in the EOL house, when i lived on the other floor a few years ago. She's living in what's practically a condo, about a 15 min drive from marcus's apartment in a little town called jenkintown, its also a suburb of philly. tiny little town, kinda cute and quaint (philly is like that, just a bunch of neighborhoods all crammed next to eachother) little movie theater, little drug store, little card shop, little art store, an art gallery, an antique shop, a furniture store and a video store, a supermarket and a little like clothing store/ mall/ salon strip UNDERGROUND and a sushi restaraunt and an italian restaurant and a middle eastern restaurant and all this stuff is all in the space of just a few blocks, and then all surrounded by some more residential blocks. its a spiff place. its like having all the things around that i liked about being close to in the city, but its not actually the city. i dont condsider it really a suburb either, cause the residential areas arent developments, theyre little houses or townhouses and theres sidewalks and no one has a garage and there's alleys between the houses and whatnot. But anyway. there's a few high rise apartment complexes (and a few ordinary by-the-building complexes too) in the area and she lives in one of those. she and three of her friends from her school have rented a three bedroom for the duration of the school year. before they lived there (or will live there cause one of them hasnt moved in completely yet and she just moved in this weekend) they lived with their parents and they havent got a lot of stuff, and its a really big place. theres a kitchen and a BREAKFAST ROOM (like a dining room only its for breakfast...) and also a dining room and a living room (that is big enough to make into two rooms, ie theyve got the couch and tv in one half and computer stuffs in the other half, a HUGE closet in the dining room thats the length of the wall, also they have a foyer and there's a closet in there. then there's the bathroom, and two bedrooms, one is normal sized and lily (thats marcus;s girlfriend's name) lives in the smallest one, and then theres the master bedroom which is HUGE and has it's own bathroom, and two people live in there. and THEN there is this extra closet. its a walk in closet and its in the hallway. its 9x10. the size of my ROOM in EOL that i SHARED. she was like, yeah. we dont have any stuff to put in there. it could practically be a fourth bedroom. so, if you dont like marcus's couch (or if you get sick of marcus and his friends, is what she really meant i think) you can have the closet. one hundred dollars a month plus one sixth of electric and internet (no cable in this house) well DAMN cant get much better than that. I'm so excited. im gonna move into a closet! wheeeeeeee! this is lara signing off :P
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